Honestly I just need to talk to someone else about everything. Like talking to a random stranger. I can’t talk to my family again cause they have already been through so much pain with my suicidal past and I don’t want them to worry. In lockdown I was fine up until the past week and I started cutting again after about 2 months. I can’t see anybody and I’m so lonely I can’t keep going anymore. And what makes me even angrier with myself is my insistent reliance on people. I could not survive without seeing people. Even just seeing new faces gives me a purpose. But now, I have no purpose and I can’t find any reasons to stay