Wish I could take a match and burn this whole house to the ground

Me and my bf got into another physical argument the worst there’s been so far he shouted in my face called me horrible names said that if I left him he would make my life unbearable to the point I’d rather be dead.

He took my phone off me and wouldn’t let me call anybody. I tried to run out of the house and he locked all the doors when I locked myself in the bathroom he said he’d film it and report me as an unstable mother.

He followed me around the house filming me threatening to upload it to the internet. I get into a very unstable place when he gets like this I was uncontrollably crying for a few seconds I felt like I lost consciousness because my vision went blurry and I while I was panicking about what he was doing he just kept making me worse.

He told me that by the end of the night I would have sex with him I told him several times I didn’t want to but he kept trying to pull my clothes off on the sofa or wherever I tried to go to get away from him he told me if I didn’t go upstairs with him he’d wake up the babies and smoke inside which he knew I wouldn’t want him to do

I went upstairs begged him to leave me alone but he wouldn’t he kept blackmailing me saying I was acting drunk ( I don’t drink ) I was just going into a panic state the whole time I’m trying to think of anything but what was going to happen he didn’t give me the option to say no we had sex and he fell asleep and now I’m sat here two days later he’s acting like I’ll just move on I don’t know if it was rape I didn’t scream I just led still and didn’t have the energy to fight back we’d been arguing for so long all I know now is I need to get out of here