Talk to me about how you calm your nerves?

I had a loss in the third trimester and I'm about 6 weeks now. How do you get through the next several weeks?

12 weeks, yep will feel relieved that I made it past the miscarriage mark

20 weeks, well thats where I found out we may have placenta issues and baby measuring small so this week terrifies me

27 weeks, thats when I lost my child.

Having a loss SO late and when they could live outside (not ideal) on their own is so hard. The anxiety is starting to overwhelm me and I'm worried about what I can and should do differently.