Me and my bestfriend have been friends for years, and my boyfriend and I have been dating for over a year. My best friend who is recently single wanted to her high and my bf smokes so she thought it was a good idea to ask him if they could get high together, so they make plans to do that.

My bf got his phone taken so I logged on or his snap to send his streaks, I accidentally tapped into their convo and saw weird stuff so I started reading and saw that they made plans to sneak out. So i texted my bsf on my snap and asked her about it and she said she was going to ask me first and ask how I felt. I told her I hated the idea and it made me super uncomfortable, but she could if she wanted to. She told me she didn’t want to hurt me so she wouldn’t do it.

Later that night, my bf was on his brothers phone and we were texting, and he then asked me about it and I told him the same exact thing and he was telling me that he wanted to and I told him he could but it would hurt me and he said that he doesn’t know what to do because he promised her he would.

So I texted my bsf and told her to tell him that she couldn’t get a ride so she couldn’t and she told me she did and that they aren’t hanging out for sure.

My bf changed our convo and later said he had to put his brothers phone away and he’d call me in no more than 30 min, well an hour passed and I had fallen asleep. The next morning (today) I woke up and saw that my bsf had texted me and I opened it and it said “hey baby, sorry I didn’t text you earlier” and so I knew it was my bf on her phone, then I viewed her snap story and they were together.

I don’t know what i’m supposed to do or how i’m supposed to feel. I did tell them they could but it would hurt me and they still did it anyways. My bsf lied to me and that sucks too. What am I supposed to do or feel??