I had pretty severe PPD and a very traumatic birth experience, and at 10 months PP I’m starting to feel that dark cloud move away finally. Unfortunately I had issues bonding and sometimes feel a little disconnected from my baby. I love him more than anything in the world, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes I feel like he’s not mine or just don’t feel that closeness the way I would like. We’re at a different stage now so I don’t really know how to strengthen our bond, or if it’s the same as a newborn. Is skin to skin still helpful for that? I’m trying to hold him more often but he’s getting close to toddlerhood so he’s always on the go. To be honest I don’t really know how to play. I was checked out emotionally for most of his life so I feel awkward, like I’m playing house or something.