TTC is horredous

You’ll laugh but I’ve been TTC for 1 month. I’m not pregnant this month. But I did opk everyday got a static smiley all the jazz and said to myself how can I not get pregnant I’ve done every right. Vitamins, pre seed, legs in the air, only missionary, sex everyday a round O day. To everyone who’s been TTC for any amount of time 2 months 2 years 20 years I salute you. Are you amazing , brave and strong. After doing all those tests everyday and obsessing for 1 month I’d decided I cannot do it again. It’s not good for your mental health, your relationship -and your self worth. I got pregnant with my first on a drunk night for my partners birthday. Months before that I was doing it when glow told me I was ovulating but didn’t actually know if I was and when I just did It carefree it happend. I know it’s true the amount of stress you put on yourself is enough to give somone a panic attack, if we feel like that imagine how our bodies feel. We click on this app 10+ times a day checking these messages seeing BFP AND BFN and spending 100s of pounds on opk and pregnancy tests. When in reality it’s just a waste of money squinting, holding it up to a light, convincing yourself there is a line. it Dosent help how you feel. I’m so happy for everyone that gets there happy ending and we will all get there eventually. If you needed to hear this today, I love you, I care about you and line does NOT determine your happiness.