I don’t want to be muslim or arab anymore

I am a 13 year old woman who was born in middle east and my parents made me a muslim. Now, I believe in islam and I want to be muslim, but my family made me hate being a muslim. They always stress me, they have taught me that being Christian is better, since everyone is killing muslim people and all the Christians i see have a good life, they just made me really hate being a muslim because they’re always like “ go pray” “go pray” “go pray” as a muslim, I have limited things I can do, I REALLY want to be an american actor, but Im scared because Im muslim in USA, same with being arab, I hate my arab family and all arab families in general, what should I do?