So bummed

I’ve known for almost a week that I’m having a boy and I’m just so upset. I have 2 boys and a girl already and I just wanted another girl so bad. After losing 2 baby girls, I really wanted a girl. I’m constantly in tears, I can’t get past it and I hate how childish I feel. Yes, he’s healthy and yes I’m going to love him. I’m just so sad and hurt. Every nub, skull, heart rate, stupid fucking theory said girl. Vent over. I’m just going to continue to cry and try to deal