Ugh I’m having a day

Now, I knew I wouldn’t be getting gifts this year and I’m completely fine with that. We don’t have the money for anything and I don’t really NEED anything right now either.

But I didn’t expect zero acknowledgement from SO or my teens.

SO left at 6 am, shortly before our son woke up to go running. I had hoped maybe for ONE day he’d delay his run a bit so I could sleep in. Something I haven’t done since our son was born. Then he went to visit his mom’s grave, fine, I get that. Then he ran into his sister there and went to her house because one of his other sisters was there. Mind you, we’re under stay at home orders in a Covid heavy area.

So it’s 4pm and I’ve literally not seen him at all yet today. He texted me happy Mother’s Day before he started his run but the only reason I knew he went to his moms grave and to his sisters house after is because she posted photos on Facebook. I texted asking when he’ll be home and no response.

Now I also have teen daughters. I haven’t even gotten a happy Mother’s Day from them. They were mad when I asked them to watch the baby for 15 minutes so I could get us some groceries because there is nothing here to eat, something SO knew and I assumed would remedy when he went out. They’ve had attitudes ALL day with me because of it. I cooked us lunch one handed because of a teething clingy 8 month old, while they sat at their computers.

Blah, I really just want a glass of wine and a bath and to cry because I hate that I couldn’t get ONE DAY where anyone tried to make my life a bit easier even though I bend over backwards for everyone else every other day.

I hate this holiday as even with people in my life who love me and that I love, it really shows me how little they’re actually willing to do for me and it’s incredibly depressing.