A secret.

So, I’ve always had health problems growing up. I had eczema and bad asthma for all my life. My eczema would be sores, scabbing , scaly patch’s that covered my entire arm or legs and dry skin. It finally went somewhat away when I turned into a teenager, the largest portion I would get it on was back of my neck which was better then my entire arm because eczema covering the arms would make it hard for you to move your arm.

When I turned 20 I got sick. I had a full body sun rash, fevers, growing lymph nodes, terrible nightsweats that would drench my bed and really bad muscle pain.

I was pretty stressed out about being sick all the time losing my job and boyfriend really put a damper on my mood along with the fact I couldn’t get out of the bed most of times without bracing myself for the pain of movement for at least 30 minutes in each room I go to. I ended up having a rare autoimmune disease. But when my disease started I didn’t know what was going on and everything was so painful.

My legs had these weird bumps and rashes on them that went a long with a autoimmune disease so I couldn’t shave them because it would be painful but luckily my leg hair is pretty light so it’s hard to tell from afar. I started getting into a habit of scratching my leg hair off or plucking them out. I also did this to my arm hair, but I wouldnt use tweezers, I’d just pull them out. I would feel so satisfied with doing so.

I mean I literally lost all hair on my legs and arms because of this. I didn’t know it was stress related but I still do it. But at least I don’t pull my eyebrows or hair on my head out.