I HATE GIVING HEAD!

Okay is this just me ladies??? I ADORE my husband. He makes me so horny and I think he is the sexiest thing to ever BREATHE, but OMG...I absolutely despise giving blow jobs! I’ve only given him 3 (where he actually came in my mouth) in the whole 3 years we’ve been together. I definitely give him oral as foreplay and I don’t mind that. But an entire blow job?! Even the thought of it... Is it just me? I get nothing from it, besides making him happy which of course I love. He doesn’t know I feel this way. Is something wrong with me????

EDIT: For those asking why I hate it... Well he is huge and my mouth is super small...kind of hurts tbh. I don’t find him gross or anything😂. I also don’t like that warm salty slime in my mouth. Nothing about it is comfortable in my mouth in any way. And I hate gagging.