WHY CAN’T MY BODY GET PREGNANT?

I’m so upset right now I need to vent. My husband and I have been TTC #1 for what seems like forever now with no luck. Two failed IUIs, two failed IVF cycles. I’ve tried everything, literally everything. Ubiquinol, Vitamin D, DHEA, antioxidants, fertility yoga, acupuncture, Preseed, timed intercourse, Mediterranean organic diet, getting rid of all toxic beauty products and cleaning products, meditation, visualization, practicing gratitude, keeping a dream journal, tracking bbt and using OPKs, not tracking bbt or using OPKs and trying to just relax and forget about it, blaming my body, trying my best to not blame my body and just accepting what life has to offer me, following every single recommendation from “It Starts With The Egg,” being mindful, talking to my therapist, drinking bone broth and fertility smoothies, joining a fertility support group, praying to God even though I’m not religious. Literally. Every. Single. Thing.

And I’m so f*cking tired.

Part of me just wants to give up. But when I think about living the rest of my life without children, I feel so completely depressed and devastated, I can’t even imagine that life for myself.

How do I keep fighting? How do I keep going? How do I find hope when it seems like there is none?