I want to pack up my bags and just fucking leave. I am done. I know I should just be appreciative for what life has given me but I am just done. I want to disappear where no one will know me and start over. I am tired of doing everything, and he can’t even dress his own daughter with out me picking out the outfit because he doesn’t know what fits her because he doesn’t try. I am tired of having to work full time with a baby on my hip with no help and at the same miraculously take care of the house AND the daily family tasks. Yea ask for help people will say, go seek counseling. I can see the comments now. Guess what I did, I tried and this whole world is fucking joke! You want help? Well to bad because Kaiser makes you wait a minimum of 2 months between appointments. Oh ask for help and talk to family ? Oh yea I did and goes no where in one ear and out the other and I m left feeling like an asshole because they had a long day at work. I thought this is what I wanted I thought this would make me happy having a family and now I am more miserable then I have ever been because some how I thought in my twisted mind this was what I wanted, I got it so wrong. Every day I go closer to packing my bags and just leaving.