I'm not comfortable😔

Growing up I was the chunky one in my class. I wouldn't say I was fat, but I defiantly wasn't skinny. To this day, I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Unfortunately my low confidence and self esteem of my weight lead me to feel guilty when I eat 😣. I'm pretty sure I've developed an eating disorder and I asked my mom if she can help me by making an appt with a therapist and she told me "you're too fat to have an eating disorder".... I feel so hopeless 😥