TTC worries

Samantha • Mama of an a 12 year old 🦸🏾‍♂️ superhero, a 8 year old brainiac👨🏽‍🎓 a sweet 👼🏿 🎀 Currently🤰🏽🌈 EDD July 2021 🥰💕TTC #3 since Nov’17

So we’ve been actively trying since since November 2017. Ended up getting pregnant with a little girl only to end up losing her at 32 weeks. We waited awhile and decided we’d try again. That’s been almost a year now. Got three faint positives in December, only for the devil to up. Then about a month after my birthday (January) we got a blazing positive. Then I ended up miscarrying on Easter day. Now I’m afraid that if I do get pregnant again I’ll worry and become obsessed with the idea that that baby won’t make it either. I don’t wanna become the crazed woman who carries around pregnancy tests in her wallet😂😂🤦🏽‍♀️🙃 I’m also unsure as to whether I want to even tell anybody that we got pregnant again. I think the next time we do end up pregnant, I’ll just pull a Kylie Jenner and pop up with a baby out of the blue. Any positive encouragement would be very welcomed!