Is anyone else struggling with your rational mind and your hormonal instincts? Mine are constantly waging war and it’s downright exhausting! With the COVID crap, my hospital’s current guidelines are that if my husband and I test positive for COVID, were quarantined from the baby for 14 days. This is my first baby and the thought of not being able to hold him for the first 2 weeks is horrifying. I keep trying to tell myself to not worry about something that hasn’t even happened yet and even if that’s the case, we’ll get through it. My hormones on the other hand are fully panicking. Especially when our neighborhood throws social distancing parties that end up with no social distancing whatsoever the more drinking there is. I’m watching my own husband high five others and then touch his face and I have an internal meltdown every time. He doesn’t share the same cautionary attitude that I have and believes we’ll be fine. I’m doing my best to think the same. It’s not working. I end up crying myself to sleep feeling so defeated and overwhelmed. Any effort I make to quarantine is pointless if my husband won’t do the same. Just needed to vent! This virus is really screwing things up!