Pregnancy weight gain triggering ED

I’m in my second trimester and gaining healthy weight but the numbers seeing the numbers on the scale are triggering my disordered eating.

I’ve struggled since my teen years with disordered eating and while the first trimester almost felt familiar with the purging, the constant weight gain in the second trimester is really stressing me out. I hate the see the numbers rise.

Have any other mamas dealt with this and how did you find a way to be be kind to yourself?