I just broke up a few weeks ago with the love of my life, we were so symbiotic together and happy.. but not happy also

He was secure and a grounding for me, wanting to keep me safe, communicative, emotionally intelligent and transparent, we had STRONG communication skills and lots of emotional resilience to handle what came for us

but he was a little controlling - to the point where I’d lost inspiration, and the sex really just didnt work, not because of physicality, just because I didn’t entirely feel wanted or sexy, he kind of just went through the motions of attempting to please me..

but we have deep love for each other,

But also we’ve broken up,

There’s another guy that I see, that sets me on fire, he is an incredible lover and I feel like we’re going through a “kundalini awakening” so much of my feeling has come back, and we have so much fun together and dance and laugh and play and paint and make music and I feel so inspired and loved and wanted.. and he just spoils me, with flowers and food an adventures

But, he was diagnosed bipolar, a few years ago and seems to be doing fine, he seems to have it under control but just that it’s there, gives me anxiety that he will just snap one day.

& honestly I’m feeling really exhausted

Want your input