Well ladies friday morning I go to schedule hopefully my last and finally surgery on my leg.. I'm terrified because I already lost all feeling in my whole leg and now I have to have them go in and pull tendons and muscles from the back of my leg and bring it to the front so they can fix my drop foot so I can walk better without tripping over my own toes.. I will never be able to walk completely normal again but at least I wont have to worry about tripping over my toes.. I did find out that I'm permanently disabled due to have nerve damage that cant be repaired... so now I will never get to be the hair dresser I always wanted to be.. I finished school but all I had left was to take my boards and I cant do that because I cant stand longer than 8 mins at most because I get very dizzy and end up in severe pain... I cant be a nurse either because they are always on their feet so that degree also no use to me any more.. sorry I'm venting it sucks not being able to do anything I love doing... I'm scared of going Friday also because i think my cement nails arent holding up because they pop a lot when I walk and I really dont want to hear that it needs fixed again... in total I have already had 4 surgeries and the one that will be scheduled friday will be 5 and hopefully it wont be one that will include fixing my hip again... I pray everything is still good with it...