Was I sexually assaulted?

There’s this trend going around where girls put paint in their hands and place it where they were sexually assaulted. When watching I started having flash backs to my ex and it made me wonder if I was too. I’m not about to be hopping on this trend but it might be a part of me I’ve ignored and haven’t worked on yet. I was once at a friends house and he kept FaceTiming me and threatening to kill himself. So I came home and the second I got inside he threw his hands down my pants and I kept telling him to stop and he told me he was looking for cum. He kept backing me up and pushed me on the bed and held me down and covered my mouth. He continued to do his check. Several times after if arguing he’d throw me onto the bed and cover my mouth and sometimes my nose too. I was crying and panicking and couldn’t breathe. Yet he made me out to be the bad person. Couple times after he’d start having sex with me and I’d tell him to stop and he wouldn’t. Was that sexual assault or just toxic relationship