Breaking up because of oral sex

Me and my partner have been together for 3 years now and if there is one thing I can't move past is his selfishness in bed!

I am sick and tired of all of the comments on this app saying how we should be grateful and shouldn't expect anything in return!

So far, I've received it no more than 5 times, out of which 2 were for less than 20 seconds!

I am so fed up. We have had so many conversations about sex, about what I like and what I need, what he is willing to do etc. And he has never said that he doesn't like it or isn't willing to perform oral on me. I have never pressured him! He has EVEN said that he loves it, but WHEN?

I do love to give blowjobs, so I give them quite often. He said he likes to give oral, but doesn't do it.

I have DONE EVERYTHING. I have asked him, I have told him a date (when I want it), playfully placed his head down. I keep myself waxed and clean, I have never had an issue with smell. When we get to the situation, he avoids it like the plague. I am not the plague!!!

I keep waiting and hoping, but it only gets worse. Last time was 7 months ago and it only lasted 10-15 seconds.

Whenever I bring the topic up he seems super excited and willing, keeps telling me that he'll surprise me, prepare for the time of my life, wait until something etc. But I only end up depressed and angry because it doesn't happen. And I waste my time and energy!

I want to break up because of this. It's not just about the sexual fullfillment, but I feel like I am going crazy and imagining things. I keep wasting my time hoping and trusting him.