Giving up

So I know this is a BFN

I took this test this morning. 27th May

From 6th of May I started getting a flashing smiley from a clear blue ovulation test.

That lasted a week until the 13th.

I never got a solid smiley face. And I gave up testing.

Last week from the 21st - 24th of May I began getting a lot of CM. Clear and Runny.

Not sure if that was an indicator of ovulation?

Since coming off the pill, my cycles have been 45 days, 40 days and now 48 days so far.

Am I out this cycle?

Or hold on to the fact I could have been ovulating 5-7 days ago and wait another week to test?

That negative this morning just made me really upset...

Still no period. Just a negative test 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s really hard having long cycles. It’s like you literally get less changes throughout the year to conceive.