Has anyone else felt this way..

Today I wrote in my journal, 'Is an abusive relationship better than being alone?' There are times I feel that this is true. I feel like well at least I am not alone I have someone.. even if they physically hurt and degrade me it doesn't matter. They give me some sort of love..

As I thought and wrote this I already knew that the correct answer is no, an abusive relationship is not better than being alone.. but I want to know if anyone has felt the same as me?

Please no rude or negative comments.