Like many, March was one of the most difficult months of my life. Losing my father a month before our sons are due is heartbreaking. When we knew my dad was not going to be able to recover, I broke down because I was not ready to lose my dad, I feared that Olivia wouldn’t really remember him and our sons will never get to meet him. My father will always be one of the most important people in my life. After my parents separated, my siblings and I lived with our father. A singe dad-unconventional but it worked for our family. My father truly was a family man, at his services I had conversations with people I never met but they all said how much he spoke of myself and my siblings with great pride. I heard a few stores that I never heard before. I made sure to write them down because I don’t want to lose them. He was not only a father to his own kids, but really anyone who needed a father figure. There are so many things I love about my father but the one that stuck out to me the most is how constantly showed up for others. My grief is overwhelming some days and I know the new added anxiety of COVID is not helping. I am doing more for myself now then I ever have. I have gone back to therapy, started a gratitude practice, moving my body again, connecting and reaching out to friends and family more. It is helping and I have to remind myself to cut myself some slack and there is no time limit to grief. . . . . #37weekspregnantwithtwins #ivfjourney #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #ivfcommunity #ivfwarrior #ivftwins #lesbiansofinstagram #gaygirls #motherhood_squares #motherhoodblog #honestmotherhood #lesbianmarriage #lesbianfollow #mothersofig #wifeandwife #lovehasnofender #samesexmarriage #brideandbride #wifelife #lesbiancouple #lesbianfamily #lesbainfamilies #sheswithher #twomoms #twomomfamily #hatchedbytwochicks #twomomsquad #believe #hope