The fate of this cycle is all up to UPS 😥

I can't even believe this is actually happening right now. I can only get gonal f from aetna specialty pharmacy, which was shipped Wed for Thurs delivery. Perfect, my last injection from a current pen was last night. Well as of last night they lost package, then it was scanned as delivered at 10:30 PM (not delivered), and today I'm being told they think it's on the wrong truck. All reps keeps telling me to wait, it will get delivered today, but that is what it said yesterday andp as every minute goes by, I just keep freaking out. This isn't a pair of sneakers or jeans that oops got lost in the mail. If I don't get this today, then I won't get it until Mon and it's too late for this cycle. After 3 years 2 miscarraiges and 2 failed IUIs, and 2 months of nothing because of stupid COVID, I can't take this anymore. And I am trying to be patient, have been on the phone for 4 hours but of course now I've totally lost my cool and now I'm the crazy bitch noone wants to help.