Religion and relationships

I’m Christian. I do bible studies, church, youth group, I lead second service Sunday school, constantly spreading the word of god yk. But one thing I’ve done studies on and stuff is sex and I have made it my vow to stay a virgin until marriage (I’m a teenager) and I know the 7 deadly sins like lust and some people do think things like head, fingering, making out ect. Is lust. And I mean I guess it kinda is.. idrk I’m kinds lost on it. And I want to do those things. Do you think it would be terrible of me to do that? Or that I’d go to hell?

FYI here is a short short backstory

I had a very terrible childhood. I have depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Which I have meds for. And for about 2ish years I was a HOE and I mean a HOE. I didn’t have sex and I didn’t RECEIVE head and I only gave it once but I did everything else a lot and often over the phone things with multiple people. I then later got baptized and decided I needed to chill way out and focus more on god. I’ve got lots of things in my life straight I’d say although nobody is perfect. I’m in highschool now and I rly want to do those things again. But obvi with someone I trust and have been with for a considerable amount of time. Which is the boy I’m with now. We have been together for almost 10 months. And he respects my choices. But I kinda wanna try it with him yk.

Any advice?

Update:

I understand y’all non religious views on it trust me I’ve been there and I respect it. But I’d rly like to hear someone’s advice on it who IS religious. Bc that’s the situation I’m in now..