Currently posting from the hospital bed. This is the 4th time since week 27 that I've been admitted due to prelabor symptoms. Each time gets worse and worse.

1st time I had the worst pain on my bottom left stomach area I ended up going to the ER and it ended up being one of my massive fibroids were giving me the most excruciating pain. Got tested for lots of things, ended up with painkillers and went away in a couple weeks.

2nd time had contractions they IVd me with magnesium + 2 shots of steroids + medication to stop contractions.

3rd time I had severe pain in another location. Right middle section of the abdominal excruciating pain that felt much worse than my contractions that i was having every 2 to 3 min. They gave me shots, IV, checked cervix. Short but still closed. Stopped my contractions, gave me meds and went home.

Today week 34 my second massive fibroid reacting + contractions + nausea + vomitting + constipation + not being able to move or do anything without pain at home brought me in and got admitted to find out im already 2cm dilated.

Im pretty much done. I want baby to come out now. The sooner the better. I feel like such a bad mom and selfish knowing that every day longer in there is better for baby girl. The doctors keep working around the clock trying to keep her in there even one more day, one more week. While I'm here secretly hoping she comes out asap. Of course I want her to be healthy! Of course I want nothing bad to happen to her. Just really struggling. Anyone feel like this ever throughout your pregnancy? First time mom here...