Out of Options?

Hello ladies and gentlemen,

I'm saddened as I'm out of options. I'm 42 years old. Married once, no kid. Getting married and have a family is my absolute dream. Unfortunately, things did not work that way for me

I read a lot, trying to figure out ways to be happy without a man because I tried, tried, and tried unsuccessfully. My researches revealed that my chance is very low to have kids with own eggs, I'm disqualified to adopt a child because I'm single. But I don't want to go through pain carrying someone else's eggs.

Please help me with ideas. Advice of hope if any left for me. I can't think. I'm so made because I waited so long to realize this significant need.