Another Social Media Post

I want to start by saying I’m genuinely SO happy for people when they post their pregnancy announcements. I’m the type of person that I’m happy to see other people happy and succeeding in all aspects of life. However, I saw a pregnancy announcement today from one of my many cousins and it felt like a kick to the gut. We have had two miscarriages and I’m just trying to patiently wait for my little bundle of joy to come around and stick but it feels like it will never happen. I try to stay optimistic and not think about it too much but every now and then I feel the little green monster start to pop out when I see other people post about their pregnancies. It only lasts for a minute and then I think about how awesome it is for them that they are welcoming a little blessing into their life. I feel like a terrible person because I felt anything but happiness towards someone else’s joy, even if it is only for a brief moment.

Does anyone else feel like this or am I just super obsessive and crazy 😅