CLEAN

Finally the guilt of me waisting my life away to dope got to me and I came home completely suicidal and I finally just burst and stopped taking anything right then and there, the next day was having SUCH bad withdrawals, and I couldn't be that sick and my man not know somethings up, so I did it, I told my fiancé the truth, how long I've been using, how much per day, my method of use, filled him into every detail... 

He handled it surprisingly very well, I thought he was going to leave me immediately but instead, he called up one of his old high school friends went out and got enough dope to last me that night, made me take it so I was unsick, once I was unsick we sat down and talked about it all, he told me he loves me so much and it kills him that I've been doing this but it doesn't change his love for me, the next morning first thing we went and got me on a 7 day detox program, and now I'm on day 5 of being clean!! Today is the easiest of all them so far, but cravings are still really badly there.. I'm on a methadone program so the withdrawal symptoms get blocked from my brain so I don't get sick at all, it's been amazing

I don't think I could have done this without my amazing man, he's even coming with me to my NA meetings for support 💕 

Here's to a better life! 🤗