CLEAN

I've been hooked on heroin, no one in my life knew, including my fiancé, my parents, my best friends, no one. 
Finally the guilt of me waisting my life away to dope got to me and I came home completely suicidal and I finally just burst and stopped taking anything right then and there, the next day was having SUCH bad withdrawals, and I couldn't be that sick and my man not know somethings up, so I did it, I told my fiancé the truth, how long I've been using, how much per day, my method of use, filled him into every detail... 
He handled it surprisingly very well, I thought he was going to leave me immediately but instead, he called up one of his old high school friends went out and got enough dope to last me that night, made me take it so I was unsick, once I was unsick we sat down and talked about it all, he told me he loves me so much and it kills him that I've been doing this but it doesn't change his love for me, the next morning first thing we went and got me on a 7 day detox program, and now I'm on day 5 of being clean!! Today is the easiest of all them so far, but cravings are still really badly there.. I'm on a methadone program so the withdrawal symptoms get blocked from my brain so I don't get sick at all, it's been amazing
I don't think I could have done this without my amazing man, he's even coming with me to my NA meetings for support 💕 
Here's to a better life! 🤗
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Ka

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Amazing story. I also was a chronic heroin user. My husband was also. I believe it made it that much more hard to quit. We had to lose everything and each other before we stopped. He went to jail and I got put in a six month treatment facility. We actually almost divorced. However a year later we are both sober and we continue to be married and are expecting. His first baby, my second child. Thru strength I found in God alone I've been able to stay completely sober. There has been struggles and cravings but just push thru those. I've been addicted to lots of different drugs but heroin was the end of my road. It almost took my life. And it was the worst withdrawals I have ever been thru my entire life. I never want to put my body thru that again.

Ro

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Congrats.  You need support, only way to do it.  Take it from someone who is 7 years clean and works in the field!

Ro

Robin • Jan 1, 2016
Family, and then fiancé, plus many aspirations, Like going to school2become a counselor, becoming a mother changed my life 4ever. So when it's the right time 4u guys, use that strength to keep goin everyday. I was a disaster&as; I tell my clients, if I could do it, so can u! Congrats on ur sobriety!

Ro

Robin • Jan 1, 2016
So how far off are you from 9 months clean Jenna? Not to promote having children in order to get clean, if u aren't ready it won't wk, but the last day I ever used was same day I conceived my 6 yr old, be 7 yrs Jan 17. I never looked back. It gave me the strength, along with the support of my

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Veronica 🌱 • Dec 10, 2015
The only way I've done it is meetings meetings meetings and sponsorship, surrounding myself only with recovering people at least for now. Don't forget alcohol is a drug and it always led me back to my drug of choice! Best of luck and you can talk to me whenever :)

Ki

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I know we don't know each other but I am so proud of you, drugs has had a big impact on my life since my mum and dad was addicted and my mum still is (clean from heroine just crack & methdone) drugs are evil, they ruin family's and tear them apart. Every day I wish my mum was completely sober but you have to really want it to get there, I hope life treats you well! Congrats hunny 

ch

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youre doing really well! im 1year 4months clean amd counting! it gets easier