Struggling with work

I’m looking for some support and or advice on my current situation. I have a 17 month old, and found out in December that we are expecting another baby in sept. (Completely a surprise). I am SUPER anxious about having two under two. And on top of that i work a 40 hour work week at a law firm that is over an hour away from where i live. I have been diligently searching for a part time job locally and i can’t seem to find ANYTHING. Of course the pandemic doesn’t help. In order for us to survive financially, i need to go part time locally to be able to keep the kids half of the day and work half of the day. My grandmother will be helping between the gaps. The problem is- i am at my wits end. I hate this job and i hate the commute- the more pregnant i get the more i can’t bear it. I don’t know what to do 😩. Does anyone have any advice on how to find a job? How to cope with the stress? I just want everything to work out and i want to be here with my babies. 🥺