9 dpo and i just feel like im out ?

this is my 17th cycle TTC for #1 and this time I used opks and ovulated on September 5th. we bd'd everyday that week and now I've had extreme bloating constipation acne veryyy gassy increased appetite .. damm near every symptom but nausea but there all symptoms of progesterone too. last night i had a lot of sticky discharge on my knickers and i usually get that before AF :( I'm just sad cause my gut is just telling me I'm not pregnant but I'm still hoping I am but I'm so tired of TTC and I don't want to test this upcoming week to be disappointed. I just want my baby :((((( sorry for the rant lol