How do you deal with it

My pregnancies our consider high risk i had my first and second premature at 32 weeks. so my third pregnancy was very rough took a lot out of me i was on bedrest couldn't do much towards my thrid trimester. I couldn't do anything if I stand to even wash dishes i started getting contractions so I would lay down a lot. Has anyone dealt with high risk pregnancies do you keep having kids. I would love to have a fourth baby since I have three boys but I don't know if my body can handle it. just sucks I wish I can have a normal pregnancy?? How to deal with it?