Coming out

In the spirit of Pride Month I recently came out that I was an asexual. For years I felt this disgust and this sadness every single time I forced myself into intercourse. I thought something was wrong with me and googled every possible thing, "What is wrong with me?" after watching the amazing show Sex Education I began to realize maybe I felt sick because I was forcing myself to do something I did not want to do. I got a new boyfriend who doesn't know I'm asexual and we almost did the spicy tango until I bursted out into tears; In the past guys would freak and leave me. But my boyfriend just held me in his arms and played cartoons to calm me down. My point is, Sex doesn't make you whole , so how could you be broken in the first place? Find someone who will understand you not force you into situations.