Am I being selfish?

My husband is in the Air Force and is set to leave to Korea for a year. This is the first time. I am trying to be positive bc I know it’s good for him career wise and it has effectively given us our next PCS overseas after he’s done with Korea which we are excited for. I have also been soaking up this time because COVID pushed his departure date from May to July.

Knowing that he is leaving for a year, he had been trying to plan a time to see his family before going because they live in another state. With all the travel restrictions on the military side, this has been virtually impossible. We suggested that maybe his family could try to come to him and they weren’t too keen on that until the last couple days when they realized that them coming here is their only option. Due to work schedules and things, they are looking at coming six days before his departure date and staying until he boards his plane.

Here’s where idk if I’m being selfish or not. I really am not looking forward to sharing my husband those last days/moments. I want that valuable one on one time and to ugly cry alone. I understand they want to see him and he wants to see them as well, I understand I’m the lucky one that gets to live with him and that will be the first to see him when he comes back. But it really adds to my anxiety over him leaving thinking about having them here all the way up until he’s gone.