Why not me....

It seems like almost everyone one my fb lately is becoming pregnant but not me.... I had a miscarriage in January (my 4th) and just want to see that stick turn for me, starting to feel like my 8 year old is gonna be my only one, my old manager announced she was expecting today and it hit me like a ton of bricks, I cried like a baby, I’m so happy for her but feel overwhelming sad because I want more then anything to have another baby I feel like a whiny baby posting this but I had to get it out or I’m gonna start crying again