What do I do ?! 🤬🥵 I’m tired ! Need advice !

Hey girls.

Thank you for taking your time to read this. I won’t write long, I don’t have very close friends so I wanted to seek advice from strong and smart women with more experience that me here.

My fiancé and I have been together for 2 years.

We have amazing moments together when everything in his life goes great but when he faces fatigue or tiredness or something he wanted to achieve doesn’t come at the moment he wanted it to come he becomes a very weird person. I love him very much and I don’t want to ever leave him because I believe everything is fixable. When he is tired and has these moments, I approach him to help him but he pours the dirt on me and says very painful things every time I do it. I used to be by his side even when he would throw these words and feel very tired because I had to give all the emotions to him... then he would be happy and apologize and we would continue to have an amazing life. Until another time something happens.

It used to happen once a month but now it has been going on three times a day or even more !

I tried to sit down and talk with him, he knows ALL my feelings but nothing happened. I tried to fight him and confront him because the talks were hopeless and he didn’t change so nobody could defend me except myself... It didn’t help. I just would end up even more drained. Today it has happened again (3 times this week already) and he keeps ruining my days... we would sleep. I would fall asleep and enjoy my dream and wake up because he would hit the pillow and curse out of nowhere because he can’t fall asleep and he is very annoyed by it. He wakes me up by what he did and I even got scared because I was in a deep sleep. Which made me not sleep and perform poorly on my work.

He started to become a weird person. He started to always say that sooner or later i will leave him but when he is fine he loves me so so much... I get so annoyed and tired of him saying that we are on different levels and I will leave him, that I will hold up maximum 1 year. It hurts me. And he knows it but still does it.

Today I took a different tactic and just stopped caring (he asked me to stop care about him) he started his circus and I just got up and left.

He ended up texting me “You’re just like everybody else... you are only by my side when i feel good and not bad.... family life is shit... before you came along it was better.... I gave up everything for you...” that’s because I left and didn’t stay and suffered his abuse.

Now he is spamming me with his depressive and negative shit ... like what the heck?!

What do I do? How do I fix this ? He is crazy...