I am just so worn down by life. I had my son four months ago and in general everything has been great. He is an awesome baby. But lately everything seems to be going downhill. My grandpa passed away last week (he was basically “dad” for a long time because my dad is unstable) , my mom is getting married for the third time this coming weekend (I keep volunteering to help and she keeps blowing me off), and I feel like everything my husband does makes me angry or anxious. I get annoyed at his jokes and when he touches me. I told him how I was feeling and he said I was having an off day. We just keep going more into debt no matter how much we try to take control of our finances. It’s just one emergency after another.

I just feel like everyone would be better off without me. The only thing keeping me here is my son. I just don’t think I could leave him without a mom and I love him so much. But I can’t stop crying and I have so many thoughts that scare me. We can’t afford therapy. I don’t know what to do.