My birthday today

It’s my birthday today. I’m 11 weeks pregnant and married for nearly 5 years with him nearly 9. For as long as I can remember he’s a very selfish man always puts his needs before his family. He never thinks of us or what we want. He emotionally blackmails me and makes me feel bad for him. I’ve tried and forgave so many times. But today is my birthday and again he like do you want to with me and starts questioning me etc and made my day about him. This happens every year and can’t remember a brill birthday where it’s been about me. Our anniversary’s he’s always ruined. Hotel reversvations that I paid for etc everything. He just a very selfish person. Currently sat here wanting a divorce as I’m sick of feeling like my feelings don’t matter. I don’t want to bring a child in to this world if this is what’s going to keep happening. Any advice be appreciated