PLEASE I BEG YOU ALL HELP ME 😭

PLEASEE HELP ME PLEASE MY LIFE TURNED TO HELL BECAUSE OF MY ABUSIVE EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY BF WE ARE NOT LIVING TOGETHER AND I’M SO WEAK TO BREAK UP WITH HIM I ALWAYS FIND EXCUSE NOT TO BECAUSE I HAVE A LOW SELF ESTEEM OBVIOUSLY BECAUSE OF HIM I HAVE NO FRIENDS TOO AND OF COURSE BECAUSE OF HIM HE MADE ME LEAVE MY DREAM JOB ALSO I’M DEVASTATED AND MISERABLE I KNOW THIS RELATIONSHIP IS WRONG WRONG WRONG AND RED FLAGS EVERYWHERE BUT I DON’T HAVE THE COURAGE TO LEAVE HELP ME I’M SO AFRAID TO LET GO OF PEOPLE AND WE’VE BEEN IN A RELATION FOR 4 YEARS MOST OF THE TIME I’M HURT SAD, CRYING, WONDERING ABOUT MY WORTH, DEPRESSED, FEELING INSANE..I MISS MY OLD SELF I USED TO BE SO INNOCENT, HAPPY AND POSITIVE I DON’T FEEL TRULY HAPPY ANYMORE AND I FEEL I WILL NEVER BE BACK TO MY OLD SELF AGAIN I’M HURT 💔💔💔😭😭😭😭