Methotrexate

I thought we had found our solution and we were done with our fertility struggles. God thought different.

We did our second frozen embryo transfer kn 5/19 and had to resort to methotrexate today in order to help my body process our miscarriage. Im upset. I feel like a failure. I feel like somehow this is my fault and I did something wrong that caused our embryo to move into my tube instead of staying in my uterus.

I'm sad because if my body could have processed this naturally we wouldn't have needed the injection. The plus side is we know the IVF meds work in creating a growing embryo, which my doctor thinks is a huge step. But at the same time, now we have to wait 4 months before we can try again. Im tired. I hurt. Im sad.