Depressed and worried

I am a plus sized woman. I knew at the beginning of this pregnancy that I wouldn’t have the cute early bump that the smaller women get, but I have nothing. I’m not even bloated.

I’m also “high risk” because I’m old, 38, and my doc said “we are going to take extra good care of you”. Bull👏🏻 shit👏🏻! I got a positive urine and blood test at 4 weeks. I’m 10 weeks now and she’s not put her hands on me once. I’ve had zero ultrasounds, and when I call I’m told “everything seems normal”. She’s not seen me! How would she know if anything is normal? I have had ZERO pregnancy symptoms. Zero. My breasts aren’t tender or anything. It’s unsettling.

My state recently opened up fully so I’m hoping for an in person visit and an ultrasound, or I may just loose my shit. Thanks for letting me vent a little.