Hi Ladies, firstly I think we are all amazing to keep going after everything we have gone through ❤

I had my second miscarriage at the end of February, I was devastated and it took a massive hit to my mental health. I had my first period around the middle of April and we had sex once...only once and I became too unwell. Lost my spark and my sex drive but my partner is brilliant and I started putting things in place to help and get better. Gp, counselling, medication etc.

Anyway fast forward and a few weeks ago when i started to feel crap, I actually thought id got the virus. That lighting moment hit and I thought 'o god when was my last period' I did a test and instantly it showed positive!!! Another 5 later and it was confirmed.

Since then my anxiety has gone through the roof, I'm having nightmares again, not sleeping properly. I'm still having my counselling and the EPU have helped but I'm just wondering if anybody has any advice in terms of how to keep myself calm? I've been offered it but unless you've gone through this I dont think people actually know it feels.

I still feel very fragile and ive convinced myself something is wrong. To say I'm only 9 weeks I've already had an NHS scan, a private one, got another private one booked for Saturday and then ill have my 12 week one in a few weeks. They make me feel better when I see little bub but then the panic comes back and i start losing it again.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you xx