Overthinking is annoying

I’m 20 and on the pill. (Pro choice)

I kept dreaming out that maybe I would miss my period because I supposedly got pregnant by my abusive ex. (we did it, no condom but sometimes after the moment I forgot where he would c-m because of...welllll...)

We aren’t with eachother anymore but

I’m on the pill, I take it religiously

And I found out this morning I wasn’t pregnant.

Huge relief

Besides, if I was, I wouldn’t know what to say to my mom if I did (she’s had 5+ abortions) but I feel like she’d be “i told you so”, nag and yell, and then help me get help

I’m not in NY (temp living in NC with a friend, ex lives in FL) and just.. feeling relieved...

ahdhhshdhhdhdhcjfj I hate overthinking. I had a literal panic attack over this.