Divorce

So I really don’t want to get judged but I need options because I’m so lost

I got married to my husband last year Jan 2019 we’ve been together for 4 years and 1 year married but after two miscarriages and lack of attention and idk I guess I’m trying to say is I don’t feel love for him anymore and it hurts me because now I feel like trash because I don’t feel the same way for him and the fact that I don’t want to try and make things work makes me feel even worse , I’m at a spot in my life right now where I don’t know what I want . I told him I wanted a divorce and that he deserves way better , but he won’t let me go :( I don t want to keep hurting him please advice ....