I’m not pregnant yet but planning. With our daughter my husband and I were young I was giving birth at 20. I had an epidural so I was in the bed all day and I was scared if the unknown and I did not enjoy being in the hospital. I don’t even have very many pictures in the hospital I think maybe one or two. But I feel guilt about how I want my next birthing experience to go. I want more pictures, maybe even naturally and having my husband help me through labor but I can’t help but feel guilt because it’s not how it went with my daughter. I’m sure most moms get guilt by wanting some thing different or experiencing it differently but how do you cope? Should I feel guilty for wanting it to go differently?