So sad

I know I'm not alone with this, so feel free to let your emotions out in the comments! xx

I want a Baby so bad! It's been 18 months since we started TTC. I had two MC in 2019 and we stopped TTC at the beginning of this lockdown. I understand why hubby wanted to stop since this is most likely going to be our last child, but I'm also so impatient to start again and so sad I have to wait even longer. Every month when my period comes I get so depressed because I know I will get my period and that's another month and potentially another egg wasted.

It's getting so bad it's actually straining our sexual relationship. I feel awful about it and try to relax, but not knowing when it'll be safe again and when hubby will be able to be there every step of their way during the pregnancy is just to much.

To clarify: for the appointments at the hospital partners aren't allowed to come with. And even if they were, my husband is a key worker and we have two children already who would have to be looked after if we were to go to an appointment together. But because he's at a higher risk of catching the virus due to his work and spreading it to the kids, we don't have anyone that could look after our kids. Our family members that usually would look after them when we need them too, have underlying health issues. So they are still shielding from everybody.

Whenever I bring up wanting another baby sooner rather than wait, hubby calls me selfish. And he's right, but I'm still hurt and sad 😭🤷🏼‍♀️

To those who think there's worse to worry about, I agree! But my feelings are still valid and this is supposed to be a safe haven for us to let our feelings out, so kindly scroll on without leaving a comment. Tia