To fat for fertility help

Junita

So I’m a little broken I have PCOS sand have needed fertility treatments to get pregnant in the past we have been trying with no luck I went to see a fertility specialist and she has refused to help me unless I loose 40kg which is impossible for me. I walked out feeling so damn defeated and ashamed and broken I was this size with my last babies but apparently this specialist sees fat mums as not worthy. I can’t stop crying