Hi I’m Tasha! A week before my birthday my 2nd daughter was born sleeping. Pushing her out and not being able to take her home was devastating.... instead of picking out a pediatrician I was picking out a mortician..... me and my husband received her ashes last week and I kinda lost it to the point of I couldn’t even hold them..... today was my due date and we found out 2 days ago we’re pregnant again..... I’m excited but super scared because that was something I wouldn’t wish on anyone and I can’t go through it again..... we’re not going to tell my daughter until her birthday which is in December because she took it sooooo hard. Even though she’s only 5 she was and still is heartbroken..... I think sometimes we forget how much our lost effects the ones closest to her..... funny thing is she’s been telling me she thinks I’m pregnant all week lol..... I wanna tell her but can’t risk the chance of her getting that hurt again.... I’m praying this will be a happy and healthy pregnancy 🧡