Marijuana gives me anxiety now 😭

Okay so I used to smoke weed all day every day for over a year. It helped me focus, reduced my anxiety, and I was just overall happier. Well, when I found out I was pregnant last July, I quit cold turkey because I didn’t know how it would affect my baby, and I wanted to put his well-being above my love for marijuana. Well, now he’s 3 months old and I absolutely hate smoking. It’s legal where I live, so shortly after he was born I tried smoking again (while he was with my mother for the night). I HATED it. I was so anxious and all I wanted to do was sleep the high off. I didn’t even smoke a lot because I knew my tolerance would be low after not smoking for 9 months. So about a month later, I tried to smoke again and I tried a different strain than before, and I smoked even LESS. I still had the same experience and I hated it. I don’t necessarily care that I can’t smoke anymore, because it saves me money and I don’t like the idea of being high around my baby anyways. A part of me just wishes I could still tolerate it for nights where the baby is with his grandma and my fiancé and I could smoke like we used to before I was pregnant. Has anyone else gone from smoking every day before pregnancy to not being able to smoke at all postpartum??

**No shaming please! As i said, it’s legal where I live and I did not smoke for my entire pregnancy, and I’ve never smoked while my baby was in my care**